it’s time to go
just the other day i said hello to you… — angela bofill
a new chapter in my life has begun and blogging doesn’t figure in it actively. not the money-making, relentless kind. i’m back in the world of work where my students take precedence and i’m in a world of mommy-hood where my children are the centre of my existence.
and then there’s the world of living and loving i inhabit with S, whose companionship, love, and unbroken support have me protected until the end of our days together.
i’m still at my portal but the busy bee days are over.
it was one helluva ride and i met so many people because of it, and made many lifelong friends. abbey, jey, ting, emer, charlotte, cbs, apol, karla… some of you have never met me, some of you have, and to those i’ve never met, i am warmed by your patience and non judgemental ways. to those i’ve met, i know you can’t forget me ever 
i met some people online who thought they knew me and could judge me but the actual version of me is the best of all. to those who wrote those ugly nasty emails and acted like petty classroom/playground bullies, i’m glad you’re gone. the whole lot of you. you were the humps i had to endure and who, frankly, taught me nothing about cyberspace or blogging. i’ve read so much about people’s private lives, and the open book love story between husband and wife has got to be the worst. if you can’t get your intimacy together, it shows because you bring it online. the smoochiekins words don’t mask the emptiness. all the forced humour laden with insulting judgements about people sell, though, so traffic in cyberspace is yours to hoard. as for the palengkera types who’ve never had the privilege of actually meeting me, you never will.
i’ve met more people who are kind and thoughtful and life in the real world is still more fulfilling and vibrant than life lived through blogging. i’m going back to my tiny crack in the internet and only those who really know me will find me and my real name on facebook, and a few peeks of me on multiply. otherwise, it’s good night and lights out for this virtual dream home.
adieu. paalam.
oh i’m never gonna say goodbye… say goodbye… sing-sing-song… lalala…
lara, you amaze me!
this comes at the right time since this is like also my last day here in manila, and i’m going back to chicago tomorrow… time is always too short when you’re having so much fun.
anyway, goodbye to his one, but not to you!!!!
God bless you nd the balancing acts of your life? are you back in ateneo?
sunny! what a pity i missed you while you were here! i should have mentioned in my entry how i was able to reconnect with the cool people of my past… daming atenista sa facebook and my high school buddies are there, too!
i’m sorry if i shocked or disappointed you during our cyber re-acquaintanceship
you’ll still get multiply updates from me though. i have tons of photos still not uploaded. as in tons!
and yes, am back in ateneo. mixed reviews for my classes. i don’t think they’ll ever see the old ferocious lara of yesteryear. i like this new version of me. the teaching version, though, is still like a colt on very unsteady legs.