ask not what your country can do for you, my friend

… rather, ask what you can do for your country. JFK said this in a different context and it is my prompt for this post. in the wake of the shocking assassination of pakistan’s benazir bhutto, my husband and i noticed how political analysts on CNN kept talking about how the death of the former prime minister seriously hampers US interests. who, they debate, can we rely on to continue in OUR war against terror? now that our washington-coddled candidate is lying beside her equally-controversial father in their lavih family mausoleum, who can we manipulate according to our agenda in that volatile region of the world?

not once have we heard any analyst (or US candidate) say, “who is the best person for the people of pakistan?”

i am listening very closely to what the democratic and republican candidates are saying in the wake of this upsetting turn of events, as i will be hearing the sketchy outlines of what america’s face will be in the international arena from 2008.

sweet singing, sweet success

finished my first (and only) christmas concert with the BMS. 30 songs in 2 hours. papa was there to capture the entire concert on camera with a photograph or two on the side. three of the tons of people i invited showed up… 1, 2, or 20, it made such a big difference to be smiling at people you know in between songs and applause. as predicted, julius our conductor was relaxed and cool, winking at me periodically to buoy my spirits. it helped take my mind off my steadily numbing legs as the concert wore on. after the second encore song, i was planted to the spot, barely able to walk off with the choir. i swear, all the blood must have rushed to my feet. i will NEVER wear high heels to a concert performance again. ever!

 


BMS warming up before the actual performance (can you see me in the middle? i’m the only one with black hair)

posing with papa S during the interval

 


with Françoise and Andru during the interval

with Andy after the concert

mapo tofu

papa cooked mapo tofu for the second time last night.* second time in his life, ever. the first time he did it, he put in too much black bean sauce so that it came out a bit too sour for our taste. then he decided to cook it again a few days ago as we had tons of tofu lying around. (i LOVE tofu)

i prepared the sherry and ground pork in one bowl, leaving out the corn starch and water mix for papa to put in as he had gone to the grocery to buy corn starch. in another bowl i placed 60 ml of soy sauce, minced ginger and crushed garlic. i did not put in the chili sauce or black bean sauce as i figured papa had his own way of measuring the “taste ingredients” and he just might not follow the recommendations in the recipe and do it his way. good thing i didn’t mess with it as he did do his own thing and when the dish was cooked, he, myself, and kimi ate it with such gusto. mikka at the time was finishing a singaporean version of adobo with dark soy sauce and hard boiled egg, but the next night, he too attacked his mapo tofu with gusto.

when the mapo tofu was down to only 1/5 of its original quantity, i remembered to take a picture of it for posterity! so here you’ll see it on the verge of extinction but très savoureux nevertheless. yum!

Ubos!

just before i ate it all! 

 

on the verge of extinction 


* this post was written december 5th.  i uploaded the photos only yesterday 🙂

when it hurts

The weight of this sad time we must obey,
Speak what we feel, not what we ought to say.

— Duke of Albany, King Lear

in al gore’s acceptance speech of his shared 2007 nobel peace prize in oslo, he started by describing the pain he endured when the 2000 presidential elections was decided against him. his loss taught him a painful lesson, he said, which made him focus his energies into doing what he always wanted to do, to serve people. the fruit of his labours since then led him down the path of environmental degradation and its inconvenient truths, and the rest is history.

lorna derksen, in explaining the words of the duke of albany in king lear, says, “In short, he is saying that the truth of our dark times must be told, whether or not it is what others want to hear.”

it was a moving speech, delivered by a highly educated and articulate man who would have been america’s president nearly 8 years ago if not for the odd electoral college rule that the united states has. election years are when you hear ohio and florida revered, and not for its college football programs or sunny climes. he minced no words, lambasting governments for waging a collective war on the earth’s resources, and called on the united states and china to stop ignoring the need to address carbon dioxide emissions issues, especially those included in the kyoto protocol of 1997, and to lead the way in redressing the situation.

i have only this to say: eloquence springs forth in unforced ways when we speak from the depths of our being, from the depths that embrace darkness and pain. we seek ways towards the light and in sometimes so doing, we discover hidden strengths that will not remain thus, and in revealing them, whether willingly or not, we show the world the marks we bear and how we have coped with it. today i just wanted to share how gore’s speech touched off a response in me that floated beside logic and cognition of what the former vice president was saying. i felt inexorably pulled in by his words, maybe because they resonated with a yearning within, or maybe because he was speaking of our world’s collective future, whittling down to a few years, that we can no longer bequeath to our young. as a mother, it may have raised my concern for my children, as when this thought flitted through my mind, “if the polar caps in the north pole disappear in 7 years instead of 20, my sons will not enjoy the beauty that i have been blessed to witness in the work of god in nature… no, this must not happen.” or it could have been something else, something more visceral, more primeval. you might dismiss it as the sappy stuff of tear jerkers but give it to me whole, wrapped in old newspapers or an ornate treasure chest, the effect remains the same.

i am quoting here the most striking part of his speech, coming in the beginning as it logically and brilliantly did, while i unhurriedly cleaned our apartment:

“Sometimes, without warning, the future knocks on our door with a precious and painful vision of what might be. One hundred and nineteen years ago, a wealthy inventor read his own obituary, mistakenly published years before his death. Wrongly believing the inventor had just died, a newspaper printed a harsh judgment of his life’s work, unfairly labeling him “The Merchant of Death” because of his invention – dynamite. Shaken by this condemnation, the inventor made a fateful choice to serve the cause of peace.

Seven years later, Alfred Nobel created this prize and the others that bear his name.

Seven years ago tomorrow, I read my own political obituary in a judgment that seemed to me harsh and mistaken – if not premature. But that unwelcome verdict also brought a precious if painful gift: an opportunity to search for fresh new ways to serve my purpose.

Unexpectedly, that quest has brought me here. Even though I fear my words cannot match this moment, I pray what I am feeling in my heart will be communicated clearly enough that those who hear me will say, ‘We must act.'”

if you heard the speech live, or have read it from the link i provided above, what do you make of it? any reactions, visceral or other? 🙂

read and write

MA is learning how to read in english and tagalog. mama teaches him how to recognise words in english; papa teaches tagalog. he’s also practising his letters. KJ, the ever loyal subject of his kuya, is always near at hand, ready to emulate the pride-inducing progress of MA. what more can i say? my cup overfloweth.

healthful pasta

Just the pasta now

papa doesn’t remember how he did it anymore, but when he did a few weeks back, it was delightful. using olive oil, blanched tomatoes, ganda ham, spinach and spices/herbs to bring out the harmonising flavours, he produced a delectable pasta that the whole family loved. i remember offering mikka some red wine to wash down his meal but i got a sharp, “mama, what did i tell you before? do not ever offer me wine again!”

Pasta up close

i remain unrepentant in my unabashed attempts to ply him with alcohol. after all, i did see children his age and even younger walking around the bordeaux wine festival with their parents, sampling the different wines on display. my brother-in-law, kuyang, constantly insists that red wine is good for the heart because of its deoxidants and that in the olden days, europeans drank beer and wine the way we drink water nowadays. maybe that’s why the french seem to have healthy constitutions, because of this penchant for the grapey stuff? 🙂

Mikka & pasta

rainy afternoon bonding

at the sinterklaas party of the kids last saturday afternoon, MA was given a 250-piece ratatouille puzzle (for kids aged 8! my son’s not even 6 yet!). when papa brought MA home from school yesterday (wednesday is half day for kids in belgium) noon, we started to prepare him for his afternoon capoeira class. he asked if he could stay home instead and work on his puzzle and papa said yes, maybe rather too quickly, and i surmised that maybe he just didn’t want to go through the hassle of biking mikka across town to the sportoase. i was in front of the pc at the time, still trying to figure out how to install a plugin, put in google adsense, and upgrade my other word press blog. then i thought, this is a rare opportunity for you to spend time with your son. leave the blogging for later!

so MA and i sat down to tackle the ratatouille puzzle. it was a slow and tedious process. before long, papa joined us and we three were hunched over the small coffee table in the living room, trying to put together the different parts of the frame. i was trying to build the border as i thought it easier to look for flat-sided pieces while the boys were building the faces of the 3 cooks, 1 critic, and the star rat. after nearly two hours of twisting and turning, we had completed our obra maestra! of course our MA took all the credit.

Mikka & Rataouille

try it sometime. you not only get to scold your kid with “don’t touch that! if you want to help, try to form something else!!!” but also get to exchange high fives all around when you see the result.

saya!

The finished product!

off the deep end

dear blogging world

some years ago i was blogging happily and strenuously… until things got a bit much and i thought, i can’t do this anymore, it’s too much, i don’t have what it takes.

but as things would have it, i’ve been given this spacious unit in ate sienna’s pansitan high rise and my neighbours are hotshot celebs and bloggers and all i can think is, “you’d be a fool to turn this opportunity down!”

and so here i am, still somewhat overwhelmed by what i need to do to get back into the groove of things, like set up my blogroll, make my rounds of blogger neighbours and friends, set aside time to write something daily, and to have the heart of an energiser bunny, almost always happy, and just keeps going and going and going.

for those of you already in my blogroll, we’ll walk together from hereon, yes? and for those of you i still have to link, may our relationships bear fruit and many real-life interactions that make this blogging adventure the tip of the iceberg.

i’m pouring myself a nice cold glass of stella artois beer. here, let me pour you a healthy round of pintjes as well.

kampai!

hic,

SR

Hello Pansitan!

it’s been a year since the rosy pink bubble that is ate sienna graciously invited me to become part of her luminary blogroll.

when one is confronted with the fullness of blessing and grace, one can only say “yes, yes, a thousand times yes”.  yes, yes, a thousand times yes, as jane said to the smitten mr. bingley, and nothing more needed to pass betwixt the two.

thank you, ate sienna, for bringing me back into a world i thought i had left behind. 🙂

i hope to make beautiful pansit in this lovely community.  let’s get cooking!